I think I am FINALLY back in the Southern by choice saddle. After having my computer in the shop and here at home being worked on, it seems to be finally working right. I have been warned though, that is is old and very outdated so I need a new one, I think that means I best be saving some money to get a new one. I am sooo resistant to change. Hopefully, this time I am back to stay.
Finally I am back. Hoping to post on a more regular basis. My computer is old and cranky like myself and it sometimes doesn’t want to cooperate. Most of the time I persevere, but other times I wait it out. Usually it will straighten itself out. But of course, there is the possibility that I am the problem.
Kinda like the people in our lives. I have learned over the years that nagging gets me nowhere. Nagging my husband to take the trash out never worked. Nagging my kids to do better in school, never worked. Even nagging myself not to eat this or that, never worked.
Even when God was trying to get me to do better, to be better, it didn’t work. Therefore I have come to the conclusion that some of our lessons just have to be learned the hard way. At least for those of us who are rather stubborn.
Blessings to all
I talk about life experiences alot on another blog, but then what do each of us have to draw from if not our personal experiences?
I have met so many people over my lifetime that I couldn’t count them even if I had to. I have met all kinds of people, both good and bad and all that would be in between. So why am I still surprised when someone I know does something so against who I thought they were?
I laid down my mean side a long time ago. Doing so, my natural nature of wanting to make everyone happy has emerged again. The problem with wanting to make everyone happy is, you get taken advantage of so much easier.
It is hard for me to say no to those I care about. I can say maybe. I can say we will see. I can say let’s wait awhile. I can dodge any request usually with great aplomb. Eventually I may work up to no. But it is hard.
So what do you do when you find yourself caring about someone who turns out to be not the person you thought they were? That they are using you to benefit themselves.
Over my lifetime I have been abused and used, so maybe I am use to it? Maybe it is my nature to not see what kind of person they really are deep inside. I can usually spot a phony a mile away and those who know me really well call me wise. How can I be wise and NOT see when someone is using me for their own purposes? For those who have, it is a gradual process and it creeps up on me without knowing. You think you know someone but you really don’t know them at all.
I have always believed there are takers and givers in this world. But I guess my problem is sometimes discerning which are which.
I am very thankful that God is in my life so there is no bitterness flowing from my pores as there might be otherwise. I know He knows and the comfort I will get from Him is all I really need.
My mother use to call it the green-eyed monster. I haven’t heard that phrase in years but it is always the one that comes to mind when I notice someone is being envious of others.
Jealousy has been around since Eve took her first breath. Money and possessions and the lack thereof seem to be one of the most prevalent of jealousies. I want and then I want some more. It has long been said that money can’t by happiness. It can buy you all the possessions you desire, but if you don’t possess the qualities that make you a good, kind and giving person, what good are all those *things*?
I heard on the news the other day that the middle class is shrinking and losing it’s battle to stay middle class. Most are tumbling farther and farther down the economic ladder and only a few are still reaching the elevated status they so yearn for. Credit card debt is at an all time high, as is bankruptcy.
So many people live in the world of want. And generations of those people have created children who become determined to have all they desire, no matter the cost.
Most of us would like to have more of the green stuff. I know I sure would. But you can’t take money with you when you leave this earthly world and I doubt many have grieved over or missed loved ones because of their money.
